Fiona

hey back.. im able to use com once again.. im happy that everything is over.. except for me and brother..

yupp. but im not going to talk about yesterday or today.. im just gonna say out from what is bottom of my heart..

im sorry papa and mummy.. i know I've made you all VERY upset yesterday. im sorry
i really didn't mean it at all.. it was my temper.. i should not have throw temper at you.. im so sorry..
im also sorry papa for hurting your hand cause of you whacking me.. i really deserve that alot..
although im now still in pain, but i know yours hurt even more.
when you showed me your hand, i was so disappointed in my own self. i will never make any one in my family upset of me anymore. i've hurt enough of you people.. i showed you guys attitude but you all controlled..i've rebelled you all from time to time, but you all still let me do whatever i want..
when brother cried yesterday.. i really felt a sudden feeling.. something seems to strike me out of nowhere..
i now know im in the wrong state.. i need time to change my attitude and my behaviour.
i know you people really cared for me alot. i can feel it but i cannot show it. something seems to block me from showing you all back the way you all help me. i dont know how to describe.
brother also bring me to church so that i will change my behaviour and to know about the Lord. im now changing. i need time.
yupp. i will never disappoint you all again. trust me =]
and yes, i will buck up on my sci and geo =]