Fiona

do you know why things turn out this way?
ask yourself. dont blame others when it is also one of your fault.
im being used, okay? do you like people to make use of you?
im always the outcast if you all notice it.. im always the one walking behind everyone.
if you say i attitude, ask yourself again. everything you all say or do i also dont know, even if i ask what is going on the answer i get back is ' nothing,dont know,what'.
you all do your things among yourself leaving me behind.
i always try to cheer you people up and what i get is shit,okay? shit
then you people start emo-ing here and there like retards.
dont get you all..
this few days i didnt really want to talk about anyone esp; backstabbing
i find it ridiculous. serious. if you dont want people to stab you in the back, then kindly keep your dirty bloody mouth shut. and yah, look into the mirror before talking.
and.. ALL those sacarstic words,action you all did to me, do you think i can take it? doesnt mean im smiling or laughing means i can be bullied easily. fuck. i hate it when i say the word 'bullied'
everytime when you all say sacarstic words to me, all i do is laugh or give stupid face. you know why? think. if i say back you all, do you think you all will be happy?
let me name all the things you all said to me
stupid,dumb,bitch,use your brains, etc etc.
theres still lots more..did i ever said that to you people? i only use those words when i cannot take it or whatsoever. today..im in a good mood. because of you people LEAVING ME BEHIND,do you know how upset can i get? and right, cant you see im in a pathetic state while you people continue asking me the same question. i just said ' i dont know lah,and i dont want' then you all not happy liao. just ONE SENTENCE. like this only, and you all not happy. wtf?
how many times you all said this kind of thing to me already? did i do anything? all i do is to say'what happen? cheer up' did you all say this words to me? no. you all continue talking among yourself pretending im not there.. you all ask me to go out with you, THINK LAH.. wtf.. you all left me behind,now asking me to go out? HAHAs.. i'll tell you what happen
when i go out with you all, you all will still be talking among yourself right? making me look like an idiot walking behind you all. RIGHT? use your brains ok?

at least i still got friends out there making me happy.

and right, everytime when you talk, you EXPECT me to reply back. STUPID right? dont tell me when you laugh i also must laugh with you. when i never laugh, you say you look like talking to a wall or a dead person. what you want me to do? stare at you when everytime you talk?
emo emo emo. i seriously hate this word. DUMB. lifes are meant to be PLEASENT. and not like this.

i will repeat one more time..
im being used.