Fiona

really very moody~~

okay.. i want to let my bad feelings out.

so yah.. how should i start? yah..
im not really in a good mood this days..
today especially.. my super good friend is not in school..yah.. makes it worst.. i have no one to joke,laugh,talk,speak-up to..
haix.. i dont know why lah.. its like.. im in such condition and i need someone to talk with, end up i got sacarstic remarks. if this were you.. how would you feel? comfirm will complain here and there right? i just kept bloody quiet..
and how do you all[people reading this] feel when you did something good[esp;helping,cheering up etc] and end up you get the same cold shoulder.. really very..you wont feel happy right? obviously.. i dont know what to say..
okok.. i want to thank someone.
SYAZWANIakaFUNNYBUNNY :DD
okok. if you didnt realise it,its ok.. yah.. the reason why i thank you is because you are the only person in class that keep me company :D. at least you brighten my day up for just 2hrs :]. but still, at least you joke&laugh with me :D
so,i almost became mute for the rest of my day..
then.. SJ.. still the same. haix..
ok.. no one talk to me,and i mean no one.. serious..how upset can i get? sacarstic remarks are still going through my ears and staying inside my head..idont know what the hell is really going on ok?..
oh yah.. i still want to thank someone also
SERENA,JINNI,SHIYING,ZIFENG,KERONG,QAMARINA
even if you all dont know.. you people also got brighten my day up a lil. at least im yea, smiling/laughing :D
this is just 1/3 of what im feeling.. i cannot be possibly typing everything out right? lols..
really very fed-up.. haix.. ok.. tell you an example.. if you all think is funny,then go ahead and laugh. ok.. one of my friend drop her coin and the coin just kept rolling and rolling.. i tried to stop the coin. when i just step on the coin.. i landed on my butt..
now you all get it? its like.. you help someone but end up getting hurt. this is what 1/3 im feeling.freaking stupid right? when you are in trouble/pain.. the person just walk away and thinks that it is none of my business. really very hurt..
i think i gived in too many times.. i cannot let this happen anymore.. whats mine is mine.. whats yours is yours.. im me. i do whatever i want.. dont ever force me into something, like a peice of shit lying on the floor

KERONG just sms-ed me..
i want to thank you that you said that you will be there for me when im down. :]. touched. thanks alot girl. ='DD

one more thing.. this is my internet journal.. so no comments needed. want to comment, go find a life